pinkcigarettes &bombthreats

I’m broken. I’m hurt. I’m sad. I can’t stop crying. This has been the worst year of my life. I’m glad I realize how much I have to live for bc otherwise I wouldn’t be here. I can’t stand the fact that I’m losing the one good thing in my life. I feel like I’m being stabbed in my chest. You promised me. You promised. And now I can see that it was all a bunch of bs. You fucking promised. I hate my life. I hate it. And you just made things a thousand times harder. I can’t be happy at all. Not like this. And I won’t be happy for a very long time. Don’t you see that? Why doesn’t it matter what I want or how I feel? I can’t even fucking type bc these tears are blurring everything.